Hello Lovers,
Wow, what an opener! well, its been a while my friends (as I channel “Crusty McCain”)I have officially graduated from college and I have a dilemma, a dilemma of the mind, body and soul. I don’t know what to do about it. I am trying to figure out what to do next, is there a career out there for me? and if so where is it? How do I get it?
I’ve been going back and forth through my mind trying to see what it is that I want. I don’t know! is it fashion, is it politics, art, non-profit organization’s saving the world? all these things are important to me and i can’t choose. I had an interview today with a restuarant as a hostess, I didn’t go cause I was scared. I hated the hours, its very high maintainance, and I didn’t think I would like it, leading to me getting fired. I got fired last monday from a job, my first time, in the history of me working, it sucked. They hated me and told me I didn’t want to be there and that I should do something else. I guess it has come back to hunt me. Now I am jobless, could have sold myself well today and had money. I feel bad, really bad, I feel like a failure. Yeah I have a degree, but I feel like its useless and so am I.
All I hope is is that I can figure it out, and soon. I don’t want to waste time on thinking and contemplating, cause I am getting nowhere. My friend (Goose) wants me to go in fashion with her, cause we both love it so much. She is a brilliant artist and a fashionista, I can wear the clothes and I have an eye for things, but not like her, I think I have the business sense of things.
hmmmmmm…Maybe I need time, to just do things and think, I have time to use up, why not use it for good?
Jade
xoxox
p.s. Merry Christmas:)
