I have come to realize that I am good at giving advice to other people and analysing things, but when it comes to myself, its impossible. Today, I think I had a bit of leeway. There is a boy, who is a friend, and we met up and talked, because we have never had the chance before. I had been debating whether or not to call him, but I finally did. He is so busy and could only meet me for lunch. It was cool and casual, we laughed and I discovered that he has the same humor as me, cause most people don’t get it, except for Mika of course:)
After, we walked and it was weird, i didn’t know what to say and it was a bit annoying because he walks so fast, I guess and he always is in a hurry. I tried to make small talk. It worked alittle bit, and we said our good-byes. He also said call him again and we can do lunch on campus. I guess the problem I have is that I am a bit attracted to him and while we were getting food, he was distracted and this nasty cook started hitting on me with his nasty friends. He doesn’t seem mutually interested, but there are various factors to this, but I don’t know if it includes me not being his type. It just seems like when there is a guy I like or that I’m attracted to, it doesn’t work. So, I’m trying to be positive about it. I told myself that no matter what happens, I always want to know him. I also hope that, if it is meant to be, that somewhere down the road I can experience mutual romance….Long road ahead, indeed.
Peace and Love,
Jade
xoxo
