A Dilemma… December 23, 2008
Hello Lovers,
Wow, what an opener! well, its been a while my friends (as I channel “Crusty McCain”)I have officially graduated from college and I have a dilemma, a dilemma of the mind, body and soul. I don’t know what to do about it. I am trying to figure out what to do next, is there a career out there for me? and if so where is it? How do I get it?
I’ve been going back and forth through my mind trying to see what it is that I want. I don’t know! is it fashion, is it politics, art, non-profit organization’s saving the world? all these things are important to me and i can’t choose. I had an interview today with a restuarant as a hostess, I didn’t go cause I was scared. I hated the hours, its very high maintainance, and I didn’t think I would like it, leading to me getting fired. I got fired last monday from a job, my first time, in the history of me working, it sucked. They hated me and told me I didn’t want to be there and that I should do something else. I guess it has come back to hunt me. Now I am jobless, could have sold myself well today and had money. I feel bad, really bad, I feel like a failure. Yeah I have a degree, but I feel like its useless and so am I.
All I hope is is that I can figure it out, and soon. I don’t want to waste time on thinking and contemplating, cause I am getting nowhere. My friend (Goose) wants me to go in fashion with her, cause we both love it so much. She is a brilliant artist and a fashionista, I can wear the clothes and I have an eye for things, but not like her, I think I have the business sense of things.
hmmmmmm…Maybe I need time, to just do things and think, I have time to use up, why not use it for good?
Jade
xoxox
p.s. Merry Christmas:)
Thanksgiving Hell! by Mika November 28, 2008
Thanksginving. A day to come together with friends and family, give thanks, football, and turkey! This day and Christmas are the Worst days of my life!. Ever since my father died last year, the family has been acting differently- especially my little brother. He is dropping out of college and moving back with my mother after only one semester. He is not really a brother at all. He is by blood and last name but that is all. He doesn’t act like a brother should. He is never caring or humble. Instead, he complains about any miniscule thing that he doesn’t approve of. So when he moved out for college, the family was relieved. And now that he will be back soon, we are NOT happy. Thanksgiving (yesterday) was completely horrible! I make it a note not to spend too much time with him…. Yesterday was too much.
The family was never great with showing affection. We barely hug each other and NEVER say “I love you.” It is the way we were raised. At the dinner table, things were… well let’s just say no one say with each other-except the ones that actually get along… We ate, slept, and went about our business…. Well, doesn’t sound like much of a Hell.. especially compared to other’s holidays….
Why am I treating this like therapy? hmmmmm.
More will be written later…
Thanks for spending your time reading my post. I hope everyone had a better Thanksgiving than mine. If so or if not, go ahead and comment. or email (mikaandjade@ gmail or hotmail.com)
Peace for All,
Mika
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A World of Celebration and Change! November 5, 2008
At 10:30 pm making my way through Kentucky home, I get a call from Mika, “He Wonnnnnnn!” OMG, screaming and then Crying, more screaming! I think I busted an ear drum, but I’m ok now:) I was listening to NPR on the way and heard that Senator (NoW Presidnet Elect) Barack Obama had racked up enough votes to win the election. FL., the West coast, Virgina, and Ohio! I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I was wondering if it was a dream, if I was going to wake and the real election would begin and I would have to vote, again! haha. Mika, her sister Goose, mom, and little sisters were extatic!
I cried all the way home, trying not to veer off the road, run into another car, or get pulled over by the police for driving erratically. It was an emotional moment in the history of my life, that I “Jade Fancypants” would see this, young and with a future at stake. I have to say this as an African American women, who ancestors were slaves, who grandparents lived through Jim Crow laws and who’s mother was a child or more like a product of the civil rights movement, I am honored and privilaged to know that anything is possible, just like they believed it to be. Like Pres-Elect Obama, I too am mixed, but we must never forget the sacrafices of those who came before us, rather they are related or not. We must also come together under one flag like those before us have done,”God Bless Our America” he said, “We are not red states, or Blue States, We are the United States” That is what it is about.
No matter the differing parties and beliefs we are gathered to be reminded that this election was made “for the people, by the people, and it shall not perish from this earth.” There is a promise to be made here to the next generation, that anything is possible if you work hard, have faith in your self and the world, and believe in the opportunity that is visible to everyone.
I am especially amazed at the world’d reaction, the out pouring of love and support. The excitement! Everyone is in love with this man and I am sure and I pray that his administration will be a successfull one. That he can renew our standing amoung nations and bring our borders closer together.
To Senator John McCain, a very fine and gracious speech. The best I have ever heard from you. I know that you will do your best to unite your supporters behined Obama and continue your great service to this country…
Voting is a powerful medium that cannot and will not be ignored!
Peace and love
Jade
xoxoxox
A Boy and A Friend October 24, 2008
I have come to realize that I am good at giving advice to other people and analysing things, but when it comes to myself, its impossible. Today, I think I had a bit of leeway. There is a boy, who is a friend, and we met up and talked, because we have never had the chance before. I had been debating whether or not to call him, but I finally did. He is so busy and could only meet me for lunch. It was cool and casual, we laughed and I discovered that he has the same humor as me, cause most people don’t get it, except for Mika of course:)
After, we walked and it was weird, i didn’t know what to say and it was a bit annoying because he walks so fast, I guess and he always is in a hurry. I tried to make small talk. It worked alittle bit, and we said our good-byes. He also said call him again and we can do lunch on campus. I guess the problem I have is that I am a bit attracted to him and while we were getting food, he was distracted and this nasty cook started hitting on me with his nasty friends. He doesn’t seem mutually interested, but there are various factors to this, but I don’t know if it includes me not being his type. It just seems like when there is a guy I like or that I’m attracted to, it doesn’t work. So, I’m trying to be positive about it. I told myself that no matter what happens, I always want to know him. I also hope that, if it is meant to be, that somewhere down the road I can experience mutual romance….Long road ahead, indeed.
Peace and Love,
Jade
xoxo
Let’s Argue About Religion! by Mika December 3, 2008
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Alright. So I am a memeber of Yahoo Answers. And from time to time I give more than just a qualified and caring answer to help the needy. Sometimes I give my own opinion….
It was about two weeks ago from today that I, along with 20 or so others, contributed my thoughts to a question-really a statement that read, “Let’s Argue about Religion.” The author posed many thought-provoking statements about Christianity like:
Ok! Please keep in mind that I(Mika) am NOT religious at all! In fact, at times, I hate religion! But I still answered the author’s question-to the best of my knowledge of course. Here is what I wrote: